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| Gdansk from balticisms. Just because. |
I feel obliged to update, even though I know I've slacked for ages.
I don't know when I'll finish updating. Perhaps I'll start again tomorrow, perhaps next week, I'll try not to make it never. I still have continental #1 to finish in any case.
The reason I've been sidetracked is because this was meant to be a sideshow at any rate, but I let it get in the spotlight - which was all very well, since I was still orientating and rehearsing for the real thing. As it is, I reached the tipping point roughly a week ago and have been careful not to let that thread go, lest I be lost in the labyrinth forever. Have been prepping for the future as I always am. As always, the notion of time, discontinuity and ends continue to fascinate me. As it is, I am doomed never to live in the present unless I'm travelling. If the trajectory of my life so far is any indicator, then that's the way to go.
I try not to think about anything superfluous, or anything that requires too much brain capacity, because I need my brain now, more so than ever, and if there's one thing I've learned, it's that I can't multitask. Which is good. Multitasking is for the banal tasks that don't matter. The things worth dedicating your whole life to, do just that. They eat you up alive. And I, in my naivety, still cling to the belief that there are things worth dedicating your whole being to.
